Being a mom

I know I go on and on about how quickly it goes... but I truly am still in shock that this is the life I'm living.  I don't think I could've even planned it out this spectacular.  I don't think I ever knew how much I wanted to be a mom.  I mean the feeling came over me so suddenly and there was a moment... a phase... where it was all I could think about.  I pictured dancing around the house with a little sweet love slung on my hip and giggling in the shade while reading books..... I still dream of chalk drawings on the side walk and baking lessons with auntie Tammy... but *sigh* somedays I just feel like it's too good to be true.  Those days I understand my mother so much more.  I see how hard it was.  How much she tried.  How much she worked.  How much she loved.  I hope that Marlow will be able to see me that way too... someday.

Being a mom is incredible.  It's demanding.  It's rewarding.  It's a gift.  It's life changing.  I'm not who I was. I was looking through some old pictures tonight.  I can't believe how much time has passed.  I can't believe Marlow will grow to be her own independent person... who will struggle, who go through sad times, who will love, and who will hopefully be blessed enough to be a mother too. 

Being a mom.... I just wouldn't do anything any other way.  I think the one thing I hope for her and her future is that she has no regrets... please please God do not let her be fearless!!!... but just purposeful...as if everything has a reason... most of all.  Let her be happy.

Marlow's April

Yes, it's mid May and I'm updating for April.  It really does fly by... Marlow's such a big girl and hitting milestone after milestone.  She took steps in April but stood up and walked around the entire house on May 1st.  I love that giddy little face full of pride as she roams through each room in the house.  She used to giggle the whole time so if my back was turned, I would at least know once she was on the move.  We had some bouts of illness but I'm happy she can finally start enjoying the warm weather.  That girl is such a fish just like her momma.  She loves loves loves the pool and anything having to do with water.  Of course also like her momma... she's been very fond of words dealing with jewelry.  She tries to say necklace, earrings, bracelet, ring, pretty, sparkle... it's adorable! 

Marlow and Bam-pa

Marlow and Daddy

 Easter fun at Nana's... I think she went to about half a dozen egg hunts so she had it down!

 Some of her Easter goodies

 And loving the water at a splash birthday party we went to.